TSARANG (LOVE)

TSARANG (LOVE)

In my life I have never been lonely. In each step of my life I found many friends. Who became special member of my memory. After +2 when I joined here as a fresher. I had only few friends. But one fine day I saw a girl who was very beautiful and she snatched my heart from my body with one glance of her face, without my permission. When I think about her a smile appear on my face without my notice. She was just like a fairy who came from fairy land. Her face is similar to a shining bright star which always attract my heart. When wind blows her hair it gave a heart attack. I have no words to express her beauty. No matter how many beautiful words I will use it could not describe her true beauty properly.

    Among the sea of people in this world, you are the only one I see. I’ll be standing here looking at you. After this love I don’t know whether I can fall in love ever again or not? Like small kids always do, I’ll embrace this love for the moment and feel her’s warmth near me.When I first saw her, I felt my heart beating on that day. From the beginning I knew. I wasn’t sure but I felt like our fate was already decided. It feels like a dream that I will never want to wake up from. It really seems like a dream, really sweet dream. I even remembered the day when we first met. She came in my life on a dizzying and bright day.

       As we stayed in same collage we met several time. When we started practicing dance which we have to perform on the opening ceremony of our university. Though she was not performing, she use to come with her friend to see me practicing. Her presence was very cheerful to me. I use to watch her secretly. So, that no one could find out that I liked her.

       When we started to attend our class for the first time our lecturer shuffled our whole class and fortunately I got an opportunity seat beside her. That time I felt little shy because we never did talked to each other. But at a same time I was so happy and my happiness had no bound. I feel like a bird freed from a cage after a long time. My heart rate raised. I tried to control my heart, but my heart was not listening to me. That time I felt like my beating heart is not mine anymore. Because I gave my heart to her from the very beginning. If I can’t able to see her for one day my heart says (bhokoshinpo so). And my both heart and mind wanted to tell her (tsarand nay yo!!!)

      My feeling for her was gradually increased day by day like a bucket filling with a rain drops and started to over flow. Even though I was not confident to tell her. I hided my feeling in depth of my heart so that no one could see and know.

      Earlier I was a person who don’t believe in love at first sight but she made me believed. No matter what the situation is with her I can smile always. Some says love is wrong or bad. Because one couldn’t get their love and some got betrayed in love. But I think the love is most beautiful and the right thing. Because I don’t care about the result. Even if I can spend only few moment with her, that is enough for me. That beautiful moment remained in my heart forever as a sweet memory. With that memory I can spend my whole life and feeling her heart next to me always.

      I tried many times to tell her or show her my heart to her but I failed to express my feeling in front of her. My fear was I might loss   her forever if I tell her. When I was confident enough to tell her I heard that she already accepted someone else. From that moment I started understanding the language of trees. Trees only knew the language of waiting to grow and blossom beautiful flower likewise I was waiting for her to return back in my life and blossom my life with happiness.as I knew it will take a lots of time to grow a tree from seeds. So for my entire life I am going to wait for her. With a hope that one day she might come back to me and I won’t be missing this time.

       Even though at that time I was so hurt and I can’t able to express myself how badly I was hurt. My heart was broken like a broken glass into small small pieces and spread-ed on the floor. I started suffering from diseases called love. My only medicine was her and I was pretty sure that I am not gonna get that medicine. So, I started ignoring her. Because I knew that it’s really gonna hurt but over time, I will be OK. Even if there’s a scar, there is no scar which doesn’t heal.

So, I choose to go against her. I proposed another girl and started being I relationship. Gradually I started forgetting her. As days, months and year passes I completely forget her but even today in some corner of my heart she is still present. What I ever wanted is her happiness.

       Now at present she became my one of my best friend with whom I can share everything about myself .and she is always one step forward to help me in any situation. I think she is send for by god and I am very blessed enough to have her in my life now I don’t want to be greedier. So, always be my friend and stay beside me forever. If you even think of forgetting me I will kick your ass to remind you that I am here on this planet earth and I am your friend.( tsarang nay dha yojha chingghu!!).

AT LAST I WANT TO SAY I AM SORRY BECAUSE I LOVE YOU …